The ugliest thing in the world is when you're feeling all alone...

A song from Sarita Fraya - The Ugliest Thing in the World (my jazz singing mate) is playing through my iTunes music playlist now, I just had gone back from all these activities which made me so exhausted: Performing in Christmas event of KBRI, eating in kapsalon, photo session in Gina's house.

And now back in my little jail with all of thoughts that could scare me to death. I just got a message from my friend whom I had a plan to go together with to Austria, telling that she's not allowed to go to Austria with me by her parents due to some issues. DAMN! I know that it could happen somehow. I have prepared myself to go alone to Austria then. Sometimes I feel it's gonna be real great, sometimes I feel it's gonna be so bored to death and not to mention when I will get lost on the unknown, unreadable and unpronounceable street in Austria, to put up some more tortures; reading maps, which I am incapable of doing that. However, I will stand up and just grab what's in front of me and do it.

Beside that big deal, I just finished exploring and browsing a Facebook of my long lost family (it's like: my mother's cousins son - what the F) Just found it and saw it, I felt like why he got everything and me not (like looks and stuffs in a term of material)? that's somehow unfair! God I know you always hear my prayer :P hahah..

Nevertheless, I always think twice and assume that; well, they got their looks but we got flairs in music!

Nighty night

Your MonsieurSolitude

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow...

YAY it's snowing outside. I could remember when the first time I saw snow in The Hague, it was at my first year in damned Holland XD! it wasn't that thick like now at that time but I was apparently happy to see a white snow as soft as a cotton.

Anywho, it's been snowing starting last week and this week, but this week is the BOMB! heavy snowing rain last night which made me staring at outside my window intensely and continuously. In the morning I woke up the snow was on the ground was so thick and I really wanted to go out and play with it. My friends, Ayu and Erick would like to go out too to play on the snow. So we eventually met which led us playing on the snow and walked around in downtown.

I never saw a snow that thick in my life before I think this is the first time for me to see a very thick and crazy snow, the snow that we believe we could make a snowman out of it, however we couldn't. Hahah..

This such experience at least ease me from the feeling of stressfulness, thinking of hard-to-get-an-internship. Knowing that lately it's a tense moment for me coz I've been looking for an internship placement in many company but in the end they reject my application, unlike all my smart-ass friends i feel like they got it easily, Bitches! SCREW THEM! I will get it somewhere somehow!

Lucky, Number 7

Slowly by slowly my stress out! this is what I like from a life, sometime you're down, sometimes you're up. Welcome to the circle of life, Ladies and Gentlemen!

Last night I was out of the blue had this feeling to check a massive-talents.com, Massive Talents is a department of Massive Music who actually I signed a contract of my music with. On that website I randomly checked their own find selection of their artist, and guess what? I am on their number 7 fine selection. 

Check this out!

Look how I am surprised by this overcome! I felt like I am the lucky number 7 hahaha since it is on number 7. After having a look, I directly told this information to people I know and they were very happy to see this result! HAHAH

Beside that, I just had a recording session in Tilburg, it's a name of little city in Holland, but I think I like the city not to mention I had a good time there. So basically, I met this guy from the internet, and I gave him my YouTube videos and in fact actually he's a DJ of a radio in Holland, called KX radio and he would like to have me on his show (what a dream is that, huh?). So he asked me to come to his friend's recording studio to record some songs for acoustic live in his radio, so yeah I think this is my break, why don't I just do it! And also the DJ will sound my demo that I just had recorded to labels. WHOOOO how fun it is!

So here we go...

Nighty night

Your MonsieurSolitude